So I haven't posted in a while. Needless to say life has been busy and I haven't really had time to sit down and get my thoughts out.
5 months tomorrow? It's so hard to believe that tomorrow our little girl will be 5 months old. Somehow 4 months old still seems so young and small but 5 months.. well that's almost a half year! Every Momma i have talked to always says "It goes by fast, enjoy every moment". I think i understand it now... it seems so surreal that 5 months have gone by and I feel like i haven't cherished each day like i should have.
This realization hit me about a week ago; (which was perfect timing considering we started teething hardcore this week which has caused many sleepless nights in a row.) I took a moment and really looked at my daughter while she was nursing herself into a nap and i couldn't believe that this child latched on to me was my own. She has grown and changed so much that its hard to recognize her as the small wrinkled little baby we brought home. I really haven't been enjoying the parenting journey like i "should" be; i have been distracted and so concerned with everyone else in Mia's life that I wasn't really enjoying the bond between us. This realization made me a much more patient and doting mother. The patience that i have had this week with her being up all night every night has amazed me; of course i have had my moments of "Oh Come On!" and "WTF" but anyone running on no sleep would.
Up until this week Mia has been sleeping from roughly 8:15/8:30 until 5:00/5:30.. amazing right? I was really enjoying getting 7 hours of sleep every night. "Just when you get one thing figured out, they switch it up on you"
Our nursing relationship has definitely morphed into something I treasure; Not only is it a time where i am forced to sit down and relax with her but it is something only I can do for her. Nothing else comforts or nourishes her like i can, it's Our moment. I hope to keep this part of our relationship going for as long as she wants it. Regardless of how many people think its "weird" or "gross" when she grows into a walker and a talker... with teeth.
It amazes me to see the world through her little eyes, everything is new and fascinating which makes me want to take her out into the world and show her new things- teach her. Watch the amazement and wonder on her perfect little face. I think that i finally settled in to Mommy hood in the last month; i actually enjoy jumping up in the morning as soon as i hear her talking to her Giraffe blanket through the monitor. Nothing in the world could feel better than seeing the giant grin that stretches across her face when she sees me come in to get her, and the tight hug from the little arms that wrap around my neck. God, I love my daughter.
Happy 5 Month Birthday Little Love.
5 months tomorrow? It's so hard to believe that tomorrow our little girl will be 5 months old. Somehow 4 months old still seems so young and small but 5 months.. well that's almost a half year! Every Momma i have talked to always says "It goes by fast, enjoy every moment". I think i understand it now... it seems so surreal that 5 months have gone by and I feel like i haven't cherished each day like i should have.
This realization hit me about a week ago; (which was perfect timing considering we started teething hardcore this week which has caused many sleepless nights in a row.) I took a moment and really looked at my daughter while she was nursing herself into a nap and i couldn't believe that this child latched on to me was my own. She has grown and changed so much that its hard to recognize her as the small wrinkled little baby we brought home. I really haven't been enjoying the parenting journey like i "should" be; i have been distracted and so concerned with everyone else in Mia's life that I wasn't really enjoying the bond between us. This realization made me a much more patient and doting mother. The patience that i have had this week with her being up all night every night has amazed me; of course i have had my moments of "Oh Come On!" and "WTF" but anyone running on no sleep would.
Up until this week Mia has been sleeping from roughly 8:15/8:30 until 5:00/5:30.. amazing right? I was really enjoying getting 7 hours of sleep every night. "Just when you get one thing figured out, they switch it up on you"
Our nursing relationship has definitely morphed into something I treasure; Not only is it a time where i am forced to sit down and relax with her but it is something only I can do for her. Nothing else comforts or nourishes her like i can, it's Our moment. I hope to keep this part of our relationship going for as long as she wants it. Regardless of how many people think its "weird" or "gross" when she grows into a walker and a talker... with teeth.
It amazes me to see the world through her little eyes, everything is new and fascinating which makes me want to take her out into the world and show her new things- teach her. Watch the amazement and wonder on her perfect little face. I think that i finally settled in to Mommy hood in the last month; i actually enjoy jumping up in the morning as soon as i hear her talking to her Giraffe blanket through the monitor. Nothing in the world could feel better than seeing the giant grin that stretches across her face when she sees me come in to get her, and the tight hug from the little arms that wrap around my neck. God, I love my daughter.
Happy 5 Month Birthday Little Love.
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